Random Thoughts

I am sitting here, just finished my two Bible studies of the day, and trying to put together a baby shower for an old friend. And thoughts of making 3 different blankets for 3 different babies coming up, one of which, the baby will not live very long, we know. All the while, being burdened by the fact that finances are not the best, and I could take my son out of school, and teach him here at home, except the sanity of those I am living with, and mine, is at stake! There are so many hurts and tragedies in this life that are not brought to our attention unless we are in the middle of them, or somehow connected to them. There are so many things that can go 'wrong'. Like finding out you are pregnant, then finding out the baby has a disorder and will not live. Or, having a perfectly healthy baby, and that baby dying for no apparent reason, after getting home from the hospital, as was my case. We never know why things like this happens. But one things those who love the Lord know, He knows why, He knows when, and He will take us through it all. He allows suffering to show our true colors. He wants us to use those times to glorify Him. We can choose to turn and run, or we can cling to Him more, praising him through the storm. I am not in an actual storm at this moment, although having my husband on the front lines of a war is tough, and I am in an almost constant state of prayer. I remember my old pastor, Dr Rogers telling us a lot, 'You are either in the storm, just coming out of one, or about to enter one'. There have been times that I have thought to myself, life is too good. I wonder what is about to happen. Those are actually valid thoughts. The hard times are what shapes us into the people God wants us to be. He is perfecting our faith. The hard times are also experienced in order for us to identify honestly with others that will go through it later on. I love praying for mothers and babies, I have an enormous love for them. I pray for a bundle of different moms and their babies to be daily. Only God knows the number of days we have here on earth. But we can lift these women and their babies up to the Lord anyway. God does answer prayers. It may not be what we wanted to hear, but He never fails to give an answer. God gave me a peace about Tim going to the military. If he is going to die, he will die driving down the road, or on the job here in the states. God knows when our time is up. God called Tim to go there, and after about 1 1/2 years of me being stubborn, but talking to God about it, God gave me the word I just spoke about, and a peace that only comes from Him, and I told Tim it was OK. The next day, he was at the recruiting office! He never once pushed me about it, or persuaded me. He let me come to the decision. That man is one of the greatest I have ever met in my life. I am so thankful for him. He is my rock, he is there for me in everything. He is supportive, loving, kind, gentle, yet stern and discerning. I can't wait to see him! He will be here in November for his leave time. The hardest part of having him over there is not worrying. I am by nature, a worrier. But by staying in God's Word daily, God has taken that burden from me. I am now writing with Katelyn on me. I will write more later