Contempt

I think that is the word I am looking for here. CONTEMPT.
Sometimes, I blog to vent. This would be one of those times. I am the oldest of three kids. I had it pretty hard from my dad. Now, I know, the oldest always gets the brunt of it from the new parents, but I am gnashing my teeth right now. I have the privilege of living with my parents while Tim is gone. Meanwhile, my youngest sibling, my teenage brother, still lives at home. He is definitely the 'baby'. I had a guy in my room 'once' in my living at home years, That was IT. I got in trouble for it, life went on. It was not allowed in my parents house- now, we weren't doing anything! There was just a guy, along with another girl and guy, in my room with the door shut!! And that was it. No more boys upstairs. Fast forward to the present. The family wakes up to a note from my teenage brother informing us that his girlfriend and another girl are asleep in his room. Um....whhhhatt?? And him and her coming and going as they wish, no worries. "He can't afford his own place." Um...whhat? I couldn't very well either at 18, but my parents told me if I wanted to live by my own rules, I needed to get my own place, and I did. I moved out, had a roommate, and worked. Now, he won't be going to any university, he will be working. So, what is their holdup?? Has my dad literally stopped parenting altogether, and completely moved into cyberspace?? I am just sayin'. I was awoken to giggles at 3:30 this morning, went in the hall, and my brother's door was shut, no lights, and guess who?? Him and girlfriend.
Did you ever read about Joseph? How his brothers could not even talk to him in a kindly manner because they were sick of the way their father treated him different than the 11 of them?? They hated him. (hmm...maybe my brother will save me from a famine on day). Now, I am far from hate for anyone, but I do feel contempt creeping in, which is why I am trying to get this thing under control, and confess it. I only have a few months left here, and if I do not get over this madness I see around me daily, things could definitely end on a bad note, and I really do not want that.
Phew, I really needed to get that out.
Good night