Living with Hope

Tim called. All is well, for my family, that is. Somewhere, there are other military wives and children mourning the loss of their husband and daddy. Some days the thought of not having the love of my life by my side for another year bogs me down, to where I cannot see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am staying in God's Word, and He teaches me so much every day. The Bible says it is like a mirror, for us to examine ourselves. Lately, unlike never before in my life, I am seeing the 'worm' I really am, as the pastor spoke of Sunday. It almost makes me sick, when I think of who we are on the inside. Not that I am any worse than any other person on earth. My hope is to be blameless. I have been examining myself a lot, and just want to be the person I am supposed to be. To raise the children I have been given, with the direction of the Lord. To stop hurting so bad for the child I lost, and look to God for strength to keep going, doing what I had started in the beginning, before I lost her. Tim will be here for his r&r in November sometime, and I can't wait! I pray so hard for his safety.